The writer’s dilemma!

I love words! Sometimes, I read and re-read and read again a few sentences and they sound so nice and beautiful. Like Illayaraja and his violin interludes; Rahman and the overtures. Philip Yancey, Dorothy Clarke Wilson, Dominque Lapierre, and Larry Collins, Harsha Bhogle, NS, DB, and a lot more great people whose play around with words have had me attracted to the English language.

No, I’m not a language connoisseur. Or a grammar Nazi! I just love the stories, the thoughts, put together like a bunch of flowers tied together on a thread. Single flowers do have the charm! But when put together, it sometimes is otherworldly.

Did any of you guess my dilemma? I’m sure some of you would have.

The dilemma of wanting to write, but don’t really know what to! Thought block, is a word often thrown around I presume; But do writers also go through the phase where they can’t think of anything to write? It sometimes feels terrible when the whole world around is chucking out so many books and here you are struggling to put together a blog. Just a 500-word blog!

Many times I open my blog, start typing profusely and delete them all. They don’t make sense. They just don’t. I simply close the computer down and go back to the big bad world of small sentences, Twitter.

I remember a pleasant October evening in Delhi when the mind just flowed stories. I wrote and wrote and wrote that day. Many of which are still in my drafts folder, but why don’t such days happen often? More often than not these days I type and delete and type and delete. The mind just feels blank. Like a bubble wrap, it just bursts out air.

So back to the dilemma. Should I just sit and push and put pen to paper, and call whatever comes out, a blog, or just wait, patiently and earnestly, that someday, some day, the thought block will be removed and the thoughts will flow like water gushing out of the opened dam.

I’m waiting for the day the dams will open and perhaps, just write a book, than stopping myself with blogs😉